sick and angry day

today was an angry day for me. i was basically angry at my friend who thinks she knows what she is doing with her life. i am not going to disclose who she is, but all i can say is that she doesnt read my blog, so its not any of my close friends who read this.

anyway, i think i got angry for the wrong reason as well, cause i think it was just a clash of ideas. ideals really... not ideas. she is playing with fire and she thinks its fun. i feel she is overbearing in some ways and very "xiao qi" in certain aspects. she thinks she is slowly getting revenge, but i think she is slowly bringing herself on a ride - to a land of hurt. but you know what, i think she is going to end up hurt. really bad too. and guess what. this is going to be mean, but if she does end up hurt, im going to be really bad and say that she asked for it and im not going to be there for her. she is taking someone for granted and i think its not going to end up very pretty.

i keep quiet and remain calm when i hear her complaining about something. because im actually pissed deep inside. i feel she thinks she is like the greatest thing on earth and the most desirable. now, things may look good on her side, but i know its going to dark and gloomy later.

and you know what. i dont know why im so angry about this actually. because im being angry with someone on how she is running her life and i am in no position or have any right to say anything. but i think im feeling this way because i have lost respect for her. really.

ok. end of rant.

although i would have typed more if i wasnt feeling so bad now. im also physically sick at the moment and i nearly wanted to throw up by the roadside twice on the way home. my head feels heavy and i feel a little faint sometimes. i have lost my hearty appetite. hahahahaa... this kinda reminds me of the time when i was angry with someone for an entire week. where i totally lost my appetite and lost 2 kg. but im not sick because of being angry with someone now. it had to be my combination of green chicken curry, strawberry ice cream and freshly baked cupcakes last night. bleh........ feeling very 'blah' now.

oh my god. what a depressing blog. better go sleep now and hopefully be able to drag myself out of bed tomorrow for work. darn.